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“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.” Proverbs 3: 5-8

      According to Merriam-Webster, Trust is defined as the ‘belief that someone or something is reliable, good, honest, effective, etc…’ In my thoughts, Trust is a very powerful word. I actually never realized the impact that simple word could make in my own personal life till just a few years ago. Of all the words, I can honestly say I rank this one to be in the top 5 of the greatest that has made such an impact in my life. Pretty bold statement, don’t you think? But when I read this definition, it speaks volumes to me in my life so this is why I decided to begin my first blog about this simple yet powerful word.

      Trust did not exist in my life until about 4 years ago. I had zero trust factors when it came to trusting anyone and the number one ‘someone or something’ that I did not trust was God. Sad, isn’t it? I am a Christian but I can honestly say I did not truly Trust God! At least not by Merriam-Webster’s definition of the word, I had faith that God existed. I loved God but I guess I did not trust him to say I could rely on him or he was effective in my life.

      I felt I was the only person in my life I could count on, just me! If things were going to happen, I was the one to make it happen. Right or wrong in my thinking, I was to do what was necessary to fix issues, to make things happen even when it really did not need to be fixed. If someone came up against me, then to me that was it. I was done! No more! Forever written out of my life, I built a shield tougher than Fort Knox. They were wrong and I was right! Then I would fall flat on my face and I would ask God why all this was happening to me? He would get me up, dust me off and I was off again only I did not realize he was the one getting me back on my feet, it was all me!

      Finally four years ago, I was at a crossroads in my life. I thought of all the stupid, stupid decisions I had made to place me where I was at that very point of standing in the middle of my kitchen. I realized I had decided somewhere in my past, who knows when? That I knew better than God! He never delivered when I needed things done and in my mindset those things I needed was right then! Let me assure you, there was never a 'in God’s time' in my life, it was all 'in my time'.

     That very day four years ago, when I was asking God Why? He simply said, “Trust me!” That was it! Just two simple words came to me. God knew my character; God knew what I needed to do. For me, God was asking me to give up control over me! At that point in my life, I was exhausted. I was mentally and physically spent on failing so I relented. God had allowed me to be at the lowest of the low in my life. I am not going to tell you my life instantly changed, because it did not. I will tell you it could have instantly changed but I very often got in the way of God. I was very stubborn.  I had decided to give up control over certain areas of my life to let God have control, just not complete control.  There were days I tried to take it back, again I would I be at that crossroads till finally I realized what he was telling me. I was to completely TRUST HIM in all areas of my life. To release any control I had to him. Over time, little by little I gave up the fight and little by little, God showed me how life did not have to be so hard. I was the one that made life hard, giving God control made things so much easier.

      My life is not perfect by any means, but I assure this one thing. Regardless of the trials I will go through, regardless if I fail him, regardless of if I fall, I can honestly say without a doubt, God has my back and He will have your back as well. It may not be easy at first, as letting go in my life was the hardest thing I have ever did but yet it was the easiest once I understood what he was telling me. It is only human nature to try to maintain some kind of control in our lives but surrendering and completely placing my Trust in God was the best thing I have ever done and it will be for you as well but just one thing to remember what you may think is best may not be what God knows is best. By letting go, God will teach you patience, he will teach you humility, he will take away any harmful pride and best of all he will show you a Love and Joy that you can ever imagine being available to you.