“I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning. Israel, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.” Psalm 130: 5-8
As I get up each day, the thought immediately comes to my mind… “maybe today”. Maybe today, he will move the mountain. Then I begin to pray for God to give me his strength to do what he will have me to do. God has placed me where I am today and today I still do not understand. I had struggled so many years with fear and sadness and God took me on a journey that delivered me from it. Through the journey he taught me so much and for this I am forever grateful. There came a day where I felt all my life came full circle and he redeemed me and brought me to a place where everything seemed so right.
Today I am reminded of the trials he allowed me to go through to learn to trust him, I struggled to the point I truly did not believe I could make it. Today is different, what I learned during that journey is he redeemed me for all the mistakes I had made. I was without a job for two and half years as I struggled to return to school and financially went from a two income family to a one. After I graduated with my Bachelor’s degree, I still waited six more months before he placed me in a job with people that I absolutely loved. In my mind, I had passed the test. I was finding my reward.
Only after a year at this great job, my world as I knew it crumbled. My husband’s job was requiring him to be transferred to another state. I was heartbroken but we had prayed for God to guide us to what he will have us do and this is what he wanted. We knew it without a shadow of a doubt. I gave notice to the job I loved, packed up our home and as I left my children and grandchildren, the tears streamed down my face and continued every day for two months. I have to admit I still give way to tears but he is my strength. I had lived in that little town all my life. My entire family surrounded me in my little part of the world there.
God spoke loud and clear to me to where he was going to place me in another job that I knew all too well from my past. I begged him to not put me back in Housing, I went to interview after interview for other jobs, yet the doors closed. Housing ripped my soul apart before and it's no different today. I see the families struggle. I witness young individuals make mistakes that will cause me to have to remove them from their homes. I hear their stories of broken hearts. Today, I will pray for them. Today, I feel in my heart I am doing God’s work though I still struggle daily to understand. I am blessed I have a job in this new place called home though it is away from all I have ever known. Today I realize the journey God allowed me to go through before was a building ground for this trial I am in now, before I struggled whether I would make it. Today I know I will make it.
Today, I will wait as the Psalmist wrote so many years ago, “I will wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning…”. Today, I have hope that tomorrow will be better because I have experienced it and today, I have hope that he has a better plan for me because he shown me. Today, I just hope!
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Amen! Praying for God to fill you with his peace and joy! Thank you for reminding me where my hope always lies. God bless
Thank You, Linda. Sometimes it is easy to forget where our Hope lies!
I can relate in some ways Linda. A lot of unexpected changes in my life and moving away from the area I grew up in have heightened my anxiety. I trust in God's plan even though I don't understand.
That beautiful thanks for posting.
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your journey, Linda <3! I know that it is so helpful to know we is not alone in our struggles. Praying for His comfort, peace and strength, in the name of Jesus <3!
I have put my trust in God, what can man do to me? Great post Linda. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Linda, I do not remember anywhere in the Bible where God said it would be like a Rose Garden. As a matter of fact, I remember Him saying the each day would come with it's own challenges. Having been on this journey for some time now, I have had to change locations more times than I would have ever imagined. Always leaving something or someone behind. One thing is for sure, God has been with me even when I was not following Him. He will not relent until He has it all to quote a song.God is an awesome God and we just have no idea where He might lead us next. One thing you can be sure of is that now you have us and you can freely express how you feel and we will at least listen. We might not always understand, but we will be your friend!
This helps me,thank you Linda. God has been teaching me that I need to let go of heart ache,grief and let Him do what He knows is best for my life including His plans for me. The past can't be changed. I accept the fact that there are consequences for bad decisions in life. But, like you said,sometimes God allows us to go on unexpected journeys to teach us whatever He feels we need to learn and/or to make us stronger. The journey is lifelong and may God guide you,Linda and your husband on any unexpected detours along the way. All I do know is that I want Him to help me empty myself of anything that is contrary to the way He wants me to live. I will seek Him first and let Him bless me however He pleases to do so. You have been a great encouragement to me Linda. God bless........
Thanks for sharing this Linda.Praise God for he will never leave you or abandon you..He is building You up and gives you strength to come through the storm so much stronger.He will always make away for you.Praise God for you are not a victim but you are victorious.He has great plans for you.For you are very Precious to him and he will never let you down. The joy of The Lord is our Strength.In times of trouble we cry out Let the weak say I am strong ,and let the poor say I am rich.,and this is so true.The past has gone today we live for Jesus.Glory be to God.Love you Sister.